Words to live by---

These 3 things remain true to the "Journey of Autism". Anyone or everyone can advise you;

ULTIMATELY you MUST go with what you feel is right. "GO WITH YOUR GUT."

Once you have arrived at this decision; "NEVER GIVE UP"!

LASTLY "Ya Gotta do, what Ya Gotta do!"



Wednesday, August 3, 2005

SLEEP ISSUES

IT IS ACTUALLY THE  3 RD OF AUGUST  BUT I HAVE AN EXERPT   { FROM JULY 30TH}  THAT I SENT ANOTHER FRIEND ABOUT THE MINOR  AND I DO SAY MINOR SLEEP  ISSUES I HAVE HAD WITH DAKOTA. SINCE THEN  I HAVE HAD ANOTHER GO AROUND WITH HIM  2 DAYS LATER  AND UPON REFLECTION  OF THE  INCIDENTS  I THINK I AM GETTING A BIGGER PICTURE OF WHAT IS HAPPENING!!!

HE HAS BEEN BED BOUND FOR 3 MONTHS AND I THINK THAT THAT SIMPLE FACT ALONE IS THE TRIGGER FOR HIS SLEEPING PATTERN CHANGE---

HERES THE EXERPT

THE PAST FEW DAYS HAVE BEEN A BIT CHALLENGING FOR ME CUZ DAKOTA IS TRYING TO WALK ON HIS OLD CRIPPLED UP FOOT AND THATS A GOOD THING BUT BECAUSE HES MOVING AROUND HE NEEDS TO BE MONITORED A LITTLE MORE SO HE DOESNT TRIP OR FALL--- AND LAST NIGHT I DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL WAS GOING ON BUT WE TURNED OUT THE LIGHTS AT 2 AND I DOZED OFF A COUPLE OF TIMES ONLY TO BE WOKEN BY "MOMMY  MOMMY"                             MAN WAS I ON EDGE  FINALLY AT 4 05 I WAKEUP AGAIN TO FIND HES NEVER REALLY GONE TO SLEEP HES CHEWED THE SHEET UP AND HES HUNGRY SHIT-------------- I KNOW I HAVE BEEN LUCKY CUZ WE HAVE NEVER HAD TO MANY SLEEP ISSUES BUT LAST NIGHT PROVED THAT I WAS SPOILED--DAKOTA FOR THE MOST PART IS STILL A 12 HOURS ON AND 12 HOURS OFF BABY AND THAT HAS PRESENTED PROBLEMS BUT ONCE YOU GET THE ROUTINE OF  IT COMES PRETTY EASY. SO ANYWAY I GOT UP GAVE HIM SOME WATERMELON AND TAPIOCA {WHAT A COMBINATION] HAD HIM  GO PEE GAVE HIM A DRINK OF WATER AND HE LAID BACK DOWN AND FELL ASLEEP ALMOST RIGHT AWAY SO I DONT KNOW WHAT WAS BOTHERING HIM  BUT NOW I FEEL BAD CUZ I GOT IRRITATED WHEN I KNOW ITS GOT TO BE HELL FOR HIM INSIDE HIS HEAD WHAT AM  I COMPLAINING ABOUT---ITS SO EASY TO DO THOUGH   TWO DAYS LATER WE HAD ANOTHER GO AROUND  I TRIED TO CHANGE ONE PATTERN SINCE HE HAS BEEN BED BOUND AND HE FLIPPED OUT ON ME  HE SCREAMED AND YELLED AND GRABBED MY ARM AND SAID I AM GOING TO TWIST YOUR ARM !! I HAVE LEARNED THAT THE BEST OPTION FOR ME IS TO GET VERY QUIET AND REMOVE MYSELF FROM IMMEDIATE CONTACT AND JUST WAIT   I KNOW WE DONT ALWAYS HAVE TIME TO DO IT BUT I AM CONVINCED THAT FOR YOUR CHILDS SAKE THE VERY BEST YOU CAN DO IS LET IT RUN ITS COURSE WITHOUT TRYING TO INTERCEDE AND SITTING AND JUST WATCHING HIM AND NOT SAYING ANYTHING WITH LITTLE OR NO REACTION HAS BEEN THE BEST "MEDICINE " FOR DAKOTA TO "DE COMPRESS" .WITHIN 10 TO 15 MINUTES HE RETURNS                              " TO OUR WORLD"     THEN USUALLY A WAVE OF REMORSE OR APOLOGIES COME       "IM SORRY MOMMY"  "I LOVE YOU MOMMY"  THEN DIALOGUE OPENS UP AGAIN AND THE WAVE IS OVER  BUT THIS ONE WENT A LITTLE FARTHER   HE THEN STARTED CRYING BIG TEARS AND TELLING ME HIS FOOT HURT AND WHY DID HE HAVE TO FALL AND WHEN IS IT GOING TO GET BETTER-- TO ME IT WAS A MOMENT OF CLARITY  HIS THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS WERE ALIGNED   I SEE THESE USUALLY AFTER HE HAS A BEHAVIOR ITS ALMOST LIKE IT BECOMES A TRIGGER FOR HIS BRAIN TO REWIRE.  ALL OF THIS HAS BEEN OCCURRING LATE AT NIGHT AND ITS LIKE THAT IS HIS TIME TO HEAL HIS BRAIN ---{BETWEEN 2AM AND 4 AM}   SO MAYBE WHY OUR KIDS HAVE SOME SLEEP ISSUES IS BECAUSE THE BRAIN IS   RE- WIRING    AT NIGHT  AND OUR KIDS HAVE SUCH ACUTE AWARENESS THAT SLEEPING IS AN INTERRUPTION TO THE HEALING PROCESS--- I DONT KNOW ITS JUST AN OBSERVATION THAT I HAVE MADE FOR OUR SITUATION                                MY MOTHER HAS ALWAYS BEEN ONE WHO IS EXTREMELY AWARE OF HER BODY AND HOW IT FUNCTIONS AND SHE IS NOT AUTISTIC  WHO KNOWS MAYBE THIS IS ANOTHER  THEORY THAT CANNOT BE EXPLORED BECAUSE MOST OF OUR KIDS CANT COMMUNICATE WITH US IN THE TRADITIONAL WAY  BUT THE NEXT TIME YOU ARE HAVING A SLEEP ISSUE AND YOU ARE ON YOUR LAST NERVE   JUST REMEMBER  TO STEP BACK TAKE A BREATH ,LOOK AROUND AND WAIT TO SEE IF YOUR BABY CAN GIVE YOU A CLUE ABOUT WHATS HAPPENING IN THEIR HEAD!!!

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