I am trying so very hard to be a good mom....I know I am far from perfect ; I faulter all the time...
I am struggling STILL with the hair pulling and twisting and it is driving me absolutely crazy. It is making me yell and it is frustrating me so badly I just want to get off this ride.
I understand he has aches and pains and things he will not verbalized. The action of twisting the hair is a way to displace something that is bothering him, yet I do not know what . I cannot control my own emotions and disappointment.
I look at the damage, it breaks my heart. He has such beautiful hair and right in the front is this bald patch like someone took a buzz saw up the middle . I try to tell him how handsom he is and how lucky he is to have hair when others his age are already loosing theirs..he says he won't do it any more and 2 minutes later there he is twisting again.
I am so ashamed that I let it bother me, I just can't get passed it. perhaps because we live in such a visual society and Autism is hard enough to struggle with muchless let people judge you before they give you a chance to know you...
Somehow I am hoping that some miracle will occur and the twisting will stop. I don't hold out hope for that that I will never give up wishing. I am not a very good Mom right now!
