Did you notice it has been all of June and July and No Posts???
For many reasons yet none of them good enough to accommodate a true bloggers intent....I write specifically for the possibility of even one person benefitting from one piece of information in one of my posts....however I have been motivated often to write when something profound or something confounds me! The alternative for blogging is for those who don't know anything about autism may learn even one thing that might help them should they ever encounter an autistic individual (one may not even know intially that they are hopefully reading this blog they will have a better awareness)
Yes it has been 2 months and many times I sat down to post then fell asleep or got distracted but that's life in general and certainly is life living with Autism. Referring back to the last it's befor my "hiatus" "Weekend Hell"still prevails .....there have been a couple of weekends that were better than others ; TODAY......seems to be the start of another challenging one. Besides our somewhat regular routine we also had a special trip to a Family reunion that took us away for 10 days...yep ..he made it for 10 days with very little problem..that being said I was on my toes and did several things to accomdate his needs which in turn produced "good days" . We were in a recreational "heaven" lots of activity but he was just as happy to see what TV he could find...I also did a little homework to help accomdate some of his food routines and although we didn't fulfill all of them ..we managed and he did very well....only had one real meltdown and it was in his own room, out of the public eye and for the most part reasonable. All and all the trip was very successful .
NOW TODAY.....he slept better and longer in his own bed ....got up and seemed to be moving thru the day ok. We went to his In-N-Out came home to relax and somewhere there was a disconnect. I made the comment that I have had enough driving yesterday that going out was t going to happen today...walked out of the room came back to find him crying profusely.....it tears my heart in half everytime I see this. More Than That It bothers me that he can't tell me why or what caused him to cry and the more I press him the more elevated his behavior comes. I saddens me. I'm not sure if it's just the Weekend Hell or it is vacation withdrawals or what the hell it is but right now it stinks....
I want him to come home with memories of a fun time spent with Mom and extended family. Not to come home to sadness and disparity.....I only wish he could explain what makes him sad...
ANOTHER STINKING THING ABOUT AUTISM THAT I HATE,
Well I have a few more stories and will try to be more diligent about writing . For now stuck in Weekend Hell....and looking toss at satan!!!!
