STRUGGLING WITH ANXIETY

I HAVE BEEN ATTEMPTING TO TAKE DAKOTA OFF THE RESPIRIDOL-- HIS AGRESSIVE BEHAVIOR AND OTHER FACTORS SEEM TO HAVE DIMINISHED DRAMATICALLY IN THE PAST YEAR OR SO I HAVENT REALLY TOLD ANYONE CUZ IN THE PAST WHEN I TOLD SOMEONE ITS SEEMED AS IF SOMEONE WOULD COME UP WITH "INCIDENTS" THAT INDICATED THAT HE "NEEDED " THE MEDICINE-- SO THIS TIME I HAVENT TOLD ANYONE  AND  ALL SEEMS TO HAVE BEEN GOING WELL --------------------- HOWEVER IN JUST THE PAST FEW WEEKS I HAVE NOTICED THAT HS HAS HAD AN INCREASE IN REPETITOUS BEHAVIOR AND A HUGE AMOUT OF ANXIETY PARTICULARLY ABOUT WHATS NEXT-- FIRST ITS THIS BIRTHDAY OR THAT BIRTHDAY THEN WE HAVE SCHOOL STARTING AGAIN THEN ITS HALLOWEEN ;THANKSGIVING AND CHRISTMAS AND SO ON AND SO ON IT KEEPS GOING AROUND IN HIS HEAD FINALLY IT HAS DAWNED ON ME THAT ALTHOUGH HE IS DOING QUITE WELL BEHAVIOR WISE WITHOUT THE MEDS HIS HEAD IS ABOUT TO EXPLODE AND HE JUST CANT TELL ME --I HAVE TO OBSERVE IT.  JUST THE PAST 2 DAYS OR SO IT HAS BECOME VERY APPARENT TO ME THAT THE RESPIRIDOL IS DOING MUCH MORE THAN REMOVEING BEHAVIORS IT IS HELPING DAKOTA LIVE EACH DAY WITHOUT THE ANTICIPATION "WHATS NEXT" I DO REALIZE THAT HALF OF WHAT GOES ON WITH HIM IS HOW HIS BRAIN WORKS ;WHAT I FAILED TO SEE IS THAT THE MEDS DO MORE THAN HELP HIM PHYSICALLY WE HAVE TO KEEP HIS BRAIN FROM THAT SHITTY ""STATIC"" OR WHAT I CALL ANT RACES LIKE THE SCRIBBLY STUFF ON THE TV WHEN A CHANNEL GOES OUT CAN YOU IMAGINE HAVING TO FUNCTION IN THIS WORLD WITH ALL THAT STUFF GOING ON IN YOUR HEAD? I CANT!