BOUGHT A TICKET TO ITALY-----

ONCE  AGAIN I FIND MYSELF WRITING TO ANOTHER MOM AND REALIZING THAT I NEED TO POST THIS ON MY LOURNAL SO  INSTEAD OF RECOMPOSING THE LETTER I WILL JUST POST IT

THIS MOM HAS I BELIEVE 3 CHILDREN ALL OF WHICH HAVE CHALLENGES AND IS FAR MORE OVERWHELMED THAN I AM BUT I KNOW SHE IS DOING THE BEST SHE CAN'

AS I HAVE TOLD A FEW OTHER MOMS I TRUELY BELIEVE THAT ONLY THOSE OF US WHO HAVE WALKED THIS PATH REALLY UNDERSTAND

I DONT MEAN TO EXCLUDE THOSE WHO TRY TO BE COMPASSIONATE OR HELPFUL BUT IT SHEER TORTURE OF WHAT GOES INSIDE YOUR HEAD SOMETIMES IT TOO MUCH TO SAY BECAUSE PEOPLE WILL THINK YOU ARE NOT RIGHT--

I CANT HELP IT : I KRINGE WHEN SOMEONE SAYS " GOD DOESNT GIVE YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN HANDLE! " I KNOW THEY ARE TRYING TO BE NICE BUT DAMMIT -- HE DOES GIVE A LOT OF US MORE THAN WE CAN HANDLE WHY DO YOU THINK THAT SOME OF US JUMP OUT OF BUILDINGS OR RUN AWAY OR DO A HOST OF OTHER STUPID THINGS BECAUSE WE CANT COPE-- LUCKILY MOST OF US HANG IN BUT WE DONT GET MUCH RECOGNITION FOR IT EXCEPT THE FRIENDS THAT SAY "ITS A GOOD THING ITS YOU CUZ I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO HANDLE IT"--DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I AM SURE YOU HAVE PROBABLY HEARD THIS ANAOLGY BEFORE BUT THERES A SAYING AND SHORT STORY ABOUT THIS WOMAN WHO WROTE THIS STORY ABOUT HAVING A SPECIAL NEEDS CHILD --IT GOES SOMETHING LIKE THIS

A WOMAN WHO WANTED TO GO TO ITALY ALL HER LIFE GRADUATED COLLEGE : SAVED AND SAVED HER MONEY, STUDIED THE LANGUAGE PLANNED AND PLOTTED WHAT SHE WANTED TO SEE  HOW LONG SHE WOULD BE THERE AND JUST COULD NOT WAIT TO EXPERIENCE SOMETHING SHE HAD BEEN THINKING OF ALL HER LIFE-- SO SHE BUYS THE TICKET BOARDS THE AIRPLANE GETS ON BOARD AND WHEN SHE LANDS SHE DISCOVERS SHE IS IN HOLLAND! HER DISSAPPOINTMENT WAS OVERWHELMING SHE COULDNT BELIEVE THAT SHE SPENT SO MUCH TIME PICTURING HER EXPERIENCE IN ITALY THAT SHE COULDNT ACCEPT ANYTHING ELSEWHAT HAPPENED IS AS THE MINUTES AND THE HOURS GO BY WHILE SHE CONTEMPLATES WHERE SHE WENT WRONG AND HOW SHE ENDED UP SOMEPLACE SHE NEVER PLANNED ON GOING SHE STARTS TO LOOK AROUND AND NOTICES HOW BEAUTIFUL THE LAND IS ALL THE TUPLIS AND THE WINDMILLS AND HOW LOVELY THE PEOPLE ARE AND THE BEAUTIFUL LANGUAGE  -- -

EVENTUALLY SHE REALIZES THAT ALTHOUGH HER HEART WAS SET ON ITALY SHE ENDED UP IN HOLLAND  ITS DIFFERENT BUT HAS ITS GOOD POINTS

ANYWAY LIKE I SAID I AM SURE YOU PROBABLY HAVE HEARD IT BEFORE BUT I THINKIT KEEPS ME ON TRACK SOMETIMES WHEN I AM FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF

 

I LOOK AROUND AND TRY TO SEE THE POSTIVE THINGS DAKOTA -MY SON - HAS DONE FOR ME AND ACTUALLY SOME OF THE "TYPICAL " TEENAGERS ARE SUCH A MESS I AM GRATEFUL I HAVE ONE THAT STILL WANTS TO BE AROUND HIS MOM AND IS SO LOVING

I AM VERY PROUD

SO " I BOUGHT A TICKET FOR ITALY AND I LANDED IN HOLLAND"

 

 I KNOW THAT DOESNT SOOTHE THE DEMONS IN YOUR HEAD WHEN YOU ARE DEALING WITH DEAFNESS AND LEARNING DISABILITIES AND ASTHEMA BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT SOMETIMES ITS JUST KNOWING THAT THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE EVEN IF IT IS IN CYBERSPACE THAT  UNDERSTAND YOURPLIGHT AND HAS TOTAL COMPASSION FOR YOU--

I KNOW JUST AS YOUR KIDS KNOW THAT YOU ARE THEIR ANGEL AND UNTIL THEY PUT US AWAY WE WILL BE THERE NURTURING THEIR PROGRESS !!!