I WILL ADMIT THEY DONT FEEL SMALL TO ME BUT WHEN I REFLECT ON OTHERS I GUESS I HAVE TO THANK MY LUCKY STARS THEY ARE WHAT THEY ARE!
LAST TUESDAY DAKOTA WAS IN THE BEDROOM HAVING A HUGE ATTITUDE BEHAVIOR GROWLING AND YELLING AT ME OVER GETTING READY FOR SCHOOL-- -- ITS A COMPLICATED STORY BUT IN A NUTSHELL GRANDMA BROKE HIS JUICE GLASS SEVERAL MONTHS AGO AND SINCE HE HAS REFUSED TO DRINK ANY JUICE--{not the right glass not going to drink juice!} SO I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO FIND A REPLACEMENT-- MY NEIGHBORS HAVE BEEN TRYING TO FIND A REPLACEMENT-- THE TEACHER HAS BEEN LOOKING FOR A REPLACEMENT. ITS AN OCD THING WHERE HE HAS ONLY ONE GLASS FOR JUICE , ONE FOR WATER, ONE FOR TEA AND HE ABSOLUTELY REFUSES TO DRINK OUT OF ANY OTHER GLASSES ---
NEEDLESS-TO-SAY IT IS INCREDABLY FRUSTRATING BECAUSE IT BECOMES A HEALTH THING TO HYDRATE HIM-- HE WONT DRINK OUT OF ANYTHING ELSE AND I DO MEAN ANYTHING ELSE!
ANYWAY THE GLASS WAS AN OLD LIBBY GLASS WITH THE GREEN LEAVES AND ORANGES ON IT FROM HIS DADS MOTHERS HOUSE--- SO I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING ALL THE ANTIQUES STORES SINCE LIBBY NO LONGER HAS A DISTRIBUTION CENTER OPERATING AND I HAVE BOUGHT AND TRIED PROBABLY 7 TO 10 DIFFERENT SIMILAR GLASSES--NO GO
SO THIS MORNING I HAD THE CLOSEST MATCH YET-- THE PEOPLE AT THE ANTIQUE STORE FELT SO BAD FOR ME THEY FOUND SOME SIMILAR GLASSES SOMEWHERE ELSE AND BROUGHT THEM TO THEIR STORE. THEN CALLED ME AND GAVE ME THE GLASSES --NO CHARGE
THIS MORNING I PUT JUICE IN IT AND SET IT ON THE TABLE WITHOUT ANY DISCUSSION OR WORDS-- HE SAT DOWN FOR 30 SECONDS AND JUMPED UP AND STARTED SHOUTING I AM DONE -- I AM NOT HUNGRY--
AND THE RIFF--ENSUED-- EVENTUALLY I TOOK THE BREAKFAST AND HOT TEA INTO THE BEDROOM TO ENCOURAGE HIM {mainly because of his meds}TO EAT WITHOUT THE ORANGE JUICE AND HE STILL INSISTED HE WASNT HUNGRY AND STARTED GROWLING AND PUFFING UP LIKE A ROOSTER.
FINALLY I PICKED UP AND LEFT-- ITS JUST NOT WORTH IT. THE DAY WAS PRETTY MUCH A WASH AND I DECIDED TO DROP EVERYTHING AND LET "MOUNT VESUVIUS" REST. EVEN SCHOOL WAS PUT ON HOLD-- I WILL NOT HAVE A START TO A DAY LIKE THAT AND THEN TAKE HIM TO SCHOOL EXPECTING THAT EVERY THING WILL BE ALRIGHT;ONLY TO GET CALLED A COUPLE OF HOURS LATER AND FIND OUT HE HAS HAD A TOTAL MELTDOWN. THE MIND THOUGHT IS I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO DISCERN WHETHER THE BEHAVIOR AT SCHOOL WAS FROM SOMETHING THERE OR WAS PRECIPITATED FROM THE BLOW OUT THIS MORNING AT HOME.
DAKOTA FIF FINALLY EMERGED FROM THE BEDROOM HAVING DRANK SOME TEA AND NIBBLED ON A SMALL PIECE OF PUMPKIN PIE AND BROUGHT HIS SHOES TO ME WHICH IS USUALLY HIS WAY OF COMMUNICATING HIS READINESS TO LEAVE. I WAS IN NO HURRY TO SEND HIM OFF TO FAILURE BUT I COULD FEEL THAT THINGS HAD "RIGHTED " THEMSELVES AND WE WERE ON TRACK AGAIN--HE FINISHED THE REST OF SCHOOL WITHOUT INCIDENT AND IN FACT HAD A GREAT DAY --SO THE END RESULT TURNED OUT GREAT.
I KNOW AS A PARENT OF TYPICAL KIDS YOU TRY TO COMMAND RESPECT AND TEACH OR SET AN EXAMPLE BUT WHEN YOU HAVE AUTISM IN THE MIX YOU LEARN THAT SOMETIMES ITS JUST NOT WORTH IT --- ITS SO HARD BECAUSE YOU STRUGGLE WITH WHETHER YOU ARE A GOOD PARENT BY LETTING THIS GO AND THERE ARE NO RIGHT ANSWERS!
MOST WHO HAVE TYPICAL KIDS OR DONT HAVE KIDS ARE QUICK TO JUDGE YOU AND YOUR STRATEGIES-- AND YOU GET A HUGE AMOUNT OF PRESSURE FROM SCHOOL AND THE STAFF WITH THEIR OPINIONS OR JUDGEMENTS
YOU HAVE TO BE STRONG JUST TO STAND FOR WHAT YOU BELIEVE AND IT IS SOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOO HARD---YOU SECOND GUESS YOURSELF CONSTANTLY JUST "GO WITH YOUR GUT" AND DONT LET ANYONE CONVINCE YOU OTHERWISE.
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