ANOTHER WEEK GOES BY

IN SOME WAYS IT FEELS LIKE THE DAYS FLY BY - - - IN OTHER WAYS IT SEEMS AS IF EVERY HOUR EQUATES TO A DAY. THE FUNNY THING ABOUT IT IS DEALING WITH THE BROKEN LEG  RATHER THAN THE AUTISM . I ADMIT THAT THE AUTISM HAS PUT A NEW TWIST TO THE EXPIERENCE HOWEVER WHEN I THINK ABOUT ALL THE "NURSING" DUTIES I HAVE BEEN DOING I KNOW THAT WHETHER DAKOTA WAS AUTISTIC OR NOT I STILL WOULD HAVE TO DO MOST OF IT . THE HEALING PROCESS IS WHAT IS BEING IMPAIRED BY THE AUTISM.

I HAVE SO MANY EMOTIONS ABOUT THIS: ITS ALMOST AS IF I AM BLOCKED FROM WRITING ABOUT IT.I AM SO ANGRY THAT THIS HAD TO HAPPEN TO MY CHILD WHO HAS SO MANY OTHER EXTRA CHALLENGES IN HIS LIFE. I AM CURIOUS HOW THIS COULD HAVE HAPPENED WHEN MY SON HAS A ONE ON ONE AIDE AND WHY HE WAS WHERE HE WAS . I AM ANXIOUS FOR THIS TO ALL BE OVER . I AM HOPEFULL THAT THIS TO SHALL PASS SOON. I AM EXTREMELY OVERWHELMED BUT HEY ISNT THAT MY LIFE ANYWAY????

I KNOW IN SOME STRANGE WAY IT IS ALL IN THE "PLAN"- THAT TIME HEALS - IT WAS "MEANT TO BE"- OH YES AND MY PERSONAL FAVORITE  [BLEEEECH] GOD DOESNT GIVE YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN HANDLE---WAIT HERE WHILE I PUKE---SORRY TO BE SO SINICAL BUT I AM FEELING A LITTLE LIKE A VICTIM AND THAT DOESNT HAPPEN VERY OFTEN . I AM OK WITH WHAT IS SLUNG AT ME MOST OF THE TIME BECAUSE I AM RESISLIANT  RESOURCEFUL AND RELENTLESS BUT WHEN OTHERS AROUND ME THAT I CARE FOR AND CARE ABOUT GET CRAP THROWN THEIR WAY I TAKE IT ON AND THATS HOW THINGS GET TO ME. AND THE ONE SIMPLE THING THAT BUGS ME THE MOST IS HOW SOME PEOPLE SLIDE THRU LIFE VIRTUALLY UNSCATHED HAVING NOTHING TRAUMATIC OF LIFE CHANGING EVER HAPPEN AND THEN THERE ARE THOSE OF US WHO SEEM TO DEAL WITH CRAP ALMOST ON A DAILY BASIS-- I KNOW YOU ARE EXPECTING ME TO SAY THIS AND I AM GOING TO BE PREDICTABLE AND SAY IT --ITS JUST NOT FAIR

CRAP SHOULD BE SPREAD EQUALLY AMONG ALL OF US. SO THE BURDEN WE EACH HAVE TO CARRY IS SHARED WHATS THAT SAYNG "EQUALLY YOKED"???

WELL I GUESS IN A PERFECT WORLD AND THATS THE KEY                            ITS NOT       SO WE LIVE WITH OUR TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS MAKING THE BEST OF WHAT WE ARE DEALT  KNOWING EVENTUALLY WE WILL ALL BE IN A BETTER PLACE   ITS JUST TE JOURNEY THAT SUCKS SOMETIMES----           AND I DO MEAN SOMETIMES   CUZ THERE IS LOTS TO BE THANKFUL ;             FOR IN THE BIG PICTURE